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I wouldn’t call myself religious. I wouldn’t say I ever have been religious in my life.

I’ve had a lot of disrespect for religion over the course of my life (at the moment). More disrespect than respect. I grew up in a multi-cultural part of England. I went to school with those from different cultures. I’ve been friends with those from different cultures. Once you get to know someone and you get along with them, their culture is just another part of who they are. But the confusion comes in when society has been programmed to believe that those who are different, are not ‘normal’ or on the same level as those who are superior (or think they are). So you get young people confused by wanting to be friends with someone who is from a different background, but for generations and from what they see and hear around them (news, family beliefs, false stories etc) to do that isn’t right.

I’ve seen many ‘white people’ be horribly racist, but then once they get to know the person, they become best mates…?

I apologise. I’m straying a little off topic here. I will get back onto what I want to talk about on this post…

My belief system is based on taboo. The shunned and shamed. It’s woo woo. Airy fairy some might say.

I’ve had a hard time referring to something as ‘God’. There’s a lot of misuse in that word. A lot of trauma, horror, pain and corruption. I don’t dislike what the word represents, I just dislike using it. I dislike how it makes me feel. How heavy the word feels. How wrong almost.

My God has been the Universe. The Universe has my back. The Universe helped make this happen. The Universe is guiding and supporting me. It’s the same concept that you see in any and all religions (my religious knowledge is not massively knowledgeable. If I’m wrong please correct me). But I just can’t say God.

The more I’ve opened up my consciousness to new perspectives and bigger pictures, the more I’ve realised I’m perhaps not doing myself justice. I’m perhaps cutting out an important piece of the puzzle.

Trusting God by Jerry Bridges showed itself to me by slight chance and out of curiosity I had a read through.

I didn’t read through the whole book. I probably didn’t even read through a quarter of it; I just jumped to a chapter of the book that caught my eye.

Trusting God For Who You Are

At the time of reading this, I had been going through a sticky couple of weeks in accepting myself for who I am. Loving my brain for how it works and all its intricacies. This chapter caught my eye.

When I began reading what first struck me is the concept of how God makes you you.

What I was reading was pretty much spot on to what my belief is, just worded differently.

My belief is, before being born here, you sign a soul contract. This contract is the entire life you are going to live before you cross the veil and enter this dimension. You (your soul) knows exactly what is going to happen whilst incarnated on Earth, but once we cross the veil all of this information gets stored in our subconscious brain.

You are already created before you are physically created here. Everything is chosen. Your lifespan, your health, your family, friends, personality, likes and dislikes. Everything about you inside and out. You are already pre-created. Pre-created by God (or what I used to call the Universe).

It might niggle a question in you, so why create awful people who do awful things?

My belief? Awful people aren’t created by God. Awful people are created by humans. Yes humans have the capacity to feel all of these wonderful and powerful emotions, but there has to be an opposite end of the scale. There always has to be a positive and a negative. The negative being awful people. Awful people that were created out of ridicule, humiliation, abuse, anger, discrimination, power and so on.

Because at the end of the day, we all still have free will. Our conscious brain completely forgets why we are here. Our subconscious brain however, does not forget. It remembers, it knows why. Those niggles, gut feelings, attractions and decisions that you can’t explain. That’s your subconscious moving you back on track to your purpose of being here. Follow it.

On my journey of discovery I realised that we are all here to learn. We’re all here to experience life on this planet. Life as a human being and at the end of our physical lives, report back to higher sources what we have learnt and what we still have left to learn.

That to me is ‘Gods willful plan’. God has created us so that it (to me God is gender less. It is ether, spirit and/or energy which is neither male nor female) can learn from us. It can learn about life, about how humans work, about emotions, about pain, torture, joy and enlightenment. We all go through our own individual experiences. Some of us may lead similar lives, but internally, how we think, process, respond and react can be vastly different. And that’s where lessons lie.

Reading the link here between my belief and that of Christianity, it sparked some thoughts and feelings within of course. But it also made me look at my bigger picture.

Yes the word ‘God’ has been turned into a heavy word that holds a lot of emotion to it, but I shouldn’t let that stop me from using it to its full potential for myself and my life.

To me God is this huge ball of light energy. It is neither he or she, it is just it. It creates from a place of love and curiosity. By only saying the Universe, I’m not actually acknowledging what created the Universe. The Universe that I am so grateful for. I’m only expressing my love, faith and gratitude for the creation, not the creator. I’m limiting myself in my own belief.

God is what created me. God is what created the beautiful things I’ve seen. God is what created the pain that has taught me. God is a part of me for I am a creation of it. That’s pretty powerful.

I’ve felt a lot of power in the comfort of saying God whilst writing this article. Something that I am yet to express in my living world.

My God is beautiful. It’s warm and loving. Kind and caring. My God knows true beauty and acceptance.

Its quite an intriguing to accept it.