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I’m gonna tell you about the first past life I explored, and let me say this now, it wasn’t what I or perhaps you would expect either…

My subconscious took me to a past life that existed in a different realm, one that I can’t label, but it was magical to say the least.

I was an elf named Theo. It’s hard to tell whether Theo was a shortened version of a longer name, or whether I named myself Theo after I ran away. I’m not sure what I ran away from or why, but I was loner. I didn’t have any friends or family, but I was happy. I was happy surviving on my own, fending for myself, looking out for myself and being my own best friend. I made my own clothing, foraged my own food and lived very closely with my land. The land was my family.

I had built my own home, and it was magnificent. Imagine a tree house with different levels, bridges, all built into the nature that surrounded me. Picture powerfully tall trees with trunks as wide as sinkholes. Picture vibrant greens that speak through colour. Imagine purple sprinkles of magic in the air that was available for you to tap into. There were creatures that were both adorable and dangerous, creatures of all sizes, shapes and colours. The realm was buzzing with life, and a proper zest for it too. My home was all mine, my place, my peace and my harmony.

The meditation asks you to go to an important day in this lifetime; my subconscious took me to a day where I was with Jasper. For those that don’t know, Jasper is my unicorn that I visit during a specific meditation (you can read more about Jasper here and here). He’s part of my spirit tribe and has offered me valuable guidance since I first met him. I’ve always kinda had this niggle that Jasper and I have known each other for eons, and that present life me isn’t the first me he has worked with. Turns out, Jasper and Theo were quite the team and together they supported each other through the hard times of this life.

At the time, the realm was under attack by aggressive forces that only cared about their own greed. They wanted to take over this realm and use the power of the land to then take over other realms. There was just never enough for them. Never enough destruction, pain or anger to fuel the pleasure they got from destroying all the beauty of things created.

Jasper and I worked together, he helped me start fresh and I helped him stay in hiding. For an elf and unicorn, we had formed quite the brotherhood.

The meditation takes you to the last day of this life and how it ended. I was at my home, I had awareness of what was creeping closer to me, but I thought I was prepared and had a bit more time. I was out foraging in my garden when I was shot with an arrow in the back of my shoulder. The two men came over to me laughing, so proud of themselves. My lord was I angry, every atom in my body wanted to destroy them in the most grotesque way possible but I couldn’t. I looked up at them, as they looked down at me and I smirked, laughing at their cowardly attempt to gain power. Needless to say, they didn’t appreciate my response, and they swiftly ended my life.

My breakdown:

This was the first past life I explored, so I wasn’t aware that there was a running theme in my previous lives, that theme being there is safety in numbers.

As I’ve said before, I’m introverted and although it is a solid part of my personality, looking at previous life’s, my desire to be alone hasn’t worked out well for me.

In astrology terms, my South Node (representing past lives and all the comforts and traits that come with that) is in Aries. Aries being the fire sign of independence, confidence, initiation and taking action. It goes without saying, but I’m very much aware that my deep desire for a me, myself and I kinda life, is not only deeply rooted within me, but for this lifetime, it’s something that I need to work on/change, to stop repeating patterns.

There is something so familiar in Theo’s reaction to his murderers. That despite his situation, he knows that they are going to be worse off than he is.
I’ve been abused in some remorseless ways, and when it was at its angriest, I remember laughing in his face as he had me pinned against a wall, face next to mine whispering threats to me. I laughed. I laughed at his insecurities. I laughed at his weakness. I laughed at his pathetic attempt to make me cower and fall to my knees begging for his forgiveness and safety. I just laughed, and needless to say he didn’t take that well and it didn’t end well for me, but it’s something that has stuck with me, and it’s a similar feeling Theo had. A feeling of you’ll never break me or I’m stronger than you are.

After this meditation, I looked through my journals to see if there were any messages from Jasper that fit in with what I had just discovered, and not surprisingly, there were:

• To let Léon in, I don’t have to do everything on my own
• Be true to myself
• Naturally gifted
• Freedom – free from the past = a free present
• Follow talents
• Spiritual – connect with the elements and land spirits

For my first exploration of my previous lives, this was eye opening for me. It solidified the tingles and gut instincts I get towards the possibilities of there being different realms, filled with creatures that we’ve been conditioned to believe are no more than fairy tales and make believe. There’s a lot out there that sadly, the majority of the modern-day humanity doesn’t believe in.

This life came with some other messages for present day:

• I’m capable of beautiful things
• I am creatively talented
• To be proud of where I’m from and who I am
• There is no such thing as defeat
• You can’t run away from everything
• There’s more to life than home

Theo, thank you for what you have shown and taught me.

For those that are curious about the unicorn meditation, you can check it out by clicking here