Shara Grove Holistics

I came across this gem a while back and have been pondering on how to write about it 3 almost 4 years on, because I can safely confirm that less more than 50% of what is written here did not, and still has not fallen into place as I thought it would, and I think a big part of that is down to my own free will.

At the end of 2021 I was single, happy, I was diving deep in therapy and I was touching back with myself, which I think this shows. I wouldn’t say I tapped back into my spiritual energy, but I definitely saw the new opportunities it could bring me. The difference is, at this time I was still quite uneducated on how the universal laws work.

I look at this page, and I see a young me (around 24-25), a young me that was trying to feel like an adult that had their shit together. A me that wanted to put myself first, whilst living, working and breathing in an environment that definitely did not want that. I see a young me that was trying to enforce a change that would bring me some feeling of alignment and security.

I do believe that this is the time where I started learning and expressing gratitude. I was beginning to look at my life and notice what made me smile, made me laugh, made me feel good, what helped me out and what made me feel like I was doing something to improve myself and my life.

Looking at this I would never choose to write ‘I intend…’ affirmations again. Why? Because they don’t tend to come from a place of alignment, they come from a place of pressure and force (even if it is only lightly). It comes from a place of discipline and I just don’t think discipline and spirituality go together. Some may disagree, and I totally see why, but for me, my brain and my body, discipline and spirituality do not go well together. The discipline removes the freedom and magic that spirituality brings me. Instead of feeling the magic behind the affirmation, I’m feeling a goal to reach that doesn’t allow the freedom of movement. The freedom to ebb and flow, the freedom to change and adjust. The word ‘intend’ suggests that it is already a non-negotiable, there’s no changing it now that it’s written out into the world. I intend to do it so I must do it. But you see, a couple/few months after this I got back with my ex (there’s that free will again), which then put a stop to my health, mental peace, m

Then there is this page, which I remember doing as a prompt to work with the moon that was happening at the time. Don’t get me wrong, I am all for manifestations and believing the reality you want to live (and can create), but the biggest and most vital step that people seem to forget is that you have to show that you are ready for that reality. There is no point trying to speak a soul mate into reality if you’re still believing (and most importantly, speaking) that all men are bad. There is no point trying to speak fortune into reality if you are still afraid of money or still recklessly spending it. There’s no point. You’re not showing that you are ready.

Let’s take the second declare and decree. Financial abundance and security is something that I have longed for, for years, but I wasn’t feeling abundant when I got my pay check. Instead it was anxiety. I wasn’t feeling abundant when I was spending money on alcohol and easy dinners out, all that followed was guilt and shame. My financial abundance and security came to me in 2024 when I was learning to sit with $5’s in my account, not knowing how much our next pay check was going to be or how long it would last (it was the one pay check at the time). That is when I learnt true abundance and security, and it’s something that I have to remind myself of even now. Financial abundance doesn’t come to you out of the blue, it comes to you when you stop fucking stressing about it. When you learn to make the discomfort of finances comfortable.

Looking at this page I can see what I was doing, speaking my wants into reality, and I do believe that this did start a snow ball effect (albeit a slow one) that has led me to my soul mate, my authenticity, a healthy family, wealth and mental peace to name a few. I do believe that this started that, but between then and now, I have had to do so much inner work in order to get the results and to get the reality I wrote of. But that’s the point. You write or speak it, you cannot go back on that, but you won’t get it till you show that you are ready.

It’s funny looking at this because 2022 ended up being an incredibly memorable year for so many reasons. I had my ankle injury which I believe was the universes intervention, I went back to England for Christmas and New Years, which resulted in me being shown how unhappy I was in my relationship (which then ended for good the following January). Work was going super well for me and I was happy doing my thing. I got to witness all of my mares become mothers. The friendships I had solidified. I was enjoying my social life, I loved my home and overall, I was happy. I had my challenges of course, but 2022 became a memorable year that I have significant and treasured memories from.

It’s hard to say whether I wrote this as a letter to a future self, or if I wrote this as a letter from my higher self to the person I was at that time. Either way, it’s always nice to read things like this. I feel like when you write these types of letters, you end up adding in details about yourself that really make you glow and feel beautiful inside and out. They’re a hug, a high five, a cheerleader and teacher all in one.

I can’t help but see my naivety in the last paragraph though. I can see why I wrote what I wrote, but I was only at the beginning of what was going to become a journey that even now, in September of 2025 I’m still progressing on. I now know my likes and dislikes (I definitely didn’t back then), I can now see my strength and weaknesses and I now know what I want and don’t want. I read this and I picture the me I was when I wrote it and I can’t help but feel like an elder looking down and smiling at my pupil, for I know there is so much my naïve pupil still has yet to learn, but reading this now, the 29 year old me is so fucking proud of the steps I’ve taken in order to find alignment, to be authentic and to know who I am.

It is truly hard to believe that these writings didn’t mark the start of what was going to be a revolutionary 4 years. 4 years of trials and errors, lessons, teachings, tears, screams, pain, joy, freedom and love. It’s incredible, to be able to look back and sense the links. The universal threads that connected that point to this point. I’m so grateful for my ability to surrender trust into the universe and mostly importantly, into myself x